let's see, a week ago my romantic situation was as stable as could be for the moment, i like him, he makes me laugh, we have a good time, BUT?? there is more that i want and i'm not sure he can give it to me... he's not a public display of affection kinda guy, he isn't tender the way i want, he is set in his ways. he has some big time complications that don't include me, he's never romantic, he's a talker not a listener.
he can be tender but only at certain times, he will hold my hand but i'm always the one doing the touching. until now i guess i was able to look past all that and just accept what he was giving. now it's sunday a week later and something else has come up.
there is someone i really like, he intrigues me, he compliments me, he makes me think, he challenges me to want better, and he listens when i talk. i know he isn't perfect but there is this something that draws me to him and yet deep down i know he would never give me a chance... i'm unsure of why i feel that way, i just do... maybe cause we got the cart before the horse and to him i'm just "fun". i talked with the one i'm seeing(kinda) and all the while i'm wanting someone else??
this makes me feel horrible, i never wanted to do this or expected to feel this way. i can leave things alone and see where the road leads, but then part of me wonders if i just wait then i may end up alone??
i want forever... doesn't have mean a ring, but i hope it does. i want that one person who i know is mine and who shares the same sort of things i do... someone who is tender/soft/unyielding/a leader/smart/talented/has some untamed part of himself/understanding and more than anything who wants me...
guess i'm too picky or expect too much?? i don't know what to do, i don't wanna hurt anyone but i don't wanna settle either. confused and unsure?? advice anyone???
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